Soul revival: Return to the Sacred self

As a shamaness I had much resistance stepping into my calling. I remember going to a talk given by a shaman once, Where they were speaking about their initiation to becoming a shaman, and how at first they had much resistance. When hearing this I got chills, and I knew deep inside it was my calling as well. I thought to myself, were in for it...,, the work, the struggle, the discovery, all of it..,, As my ancestors prepared the grounds for what would be a grand journey into the thicket of my heart's truest calling.

There was something mystical about the word shaman that had me pondering life. It made sense to me that as I was healing my ancestry, I would be initiated into a culture of light workers, medicine people and healers that were all here to save the planet! And that through my practice I would be healing the lineages through doing the work of clearing 7 generations forwards and back.

One of my teachers once said, that a shaman is someone who works between the realms. I found this fascinating as I had felt called to discover mind altering substances earlier on in my adult years. At first I thought it was mostly for pleasure but eventually besides the level of deceit from having to be descreet and hide my usage, I found that drugs offered the partial release that allowed so that there wasn't the initial felt trauma, that was all but what was built up around my heart Chakra.

I looked for quick ways of healing, afterall the self study work I was doing had me practicing methods and formulas that I would practice as a way of communing with the Divine for my healing and growth. But I got tired of the incessant worry of constantly needing to find a healing salve. I felt driven to find the most direct way of healing. But it seemed that most practices offered only a temporary release and at times I looked for more of an all encompassing truth that resembled life at it's finest, playing myself, actualizing more of what I loved and wanted to seek such as,,.. abundance, truth and unconditional love.

I felt intrinsically connected to an all abiding Source and at times tasted the inner glimpses of solitude it offered to be in alignment with beauty's reduction but often I wanted more than just feeling vacant and distantly available. This I sought and felt as the inner state of virtue achieved through inner stillness and meditation. But the common gist had me feeling that free will was something found aside the self. It wasn't until I looked inwards that I found the inner wellspring that was there all along but was often a hidden path due to the dual nature of shadow wants.

A master once said, "The true hidden gem is to be of clarity of the mind." I sought to find a better way.

I wanted peace to exude as part of me. I wanted to feel Divinely inspired and guided with One knowing. And I wanted to feel like at once I had it all together. To feel fully wholelistic and naturally bonded, to myself, my community and my primordial roots. But after years of lofty ideals and power strayin and thinking that some Divine power outside myself was going to save me, I decided to take the reigns.

I knew the Divine had a specialty plan laid out for all of us. And I was finally getting a grip on what it meant to be a free will Creator.

The journey at the core of becoming needless to say was always gonna be about holiness. You just gotta want it to dig deep. Or was it... you just gotta dig deep to want it. This was the keycode to Life as I knew it. A mantra so simple yet profound, but encapsulated the dichotomy split of the core centrifugal theory that we are the human actors as well as Divine embodiment in form accessed through true inner knowing. Given that most of us are waking up to this deep remembering through the Soul star invoking of our prebirthing ordeals, I thought what better timing than to re- release my ebooks!!! As we all carry the inherent memory that we are harnessing now as the true healing North Star for activating and coming back to our Original blueprint!!!

I have heard that true healing is a permanece attitude.

Awareness in it's Non-Dual form as permanence can be as far from definition as trying to condense a masterpiece artwork. It encompasses everything but yet is far beyond descriptive words.

This led me on a journey of wanting pleasure and trusting that the more I lean in, I could vouch, the same pleasure caught my attention on the other side. The dualistic means of self aggregation. A dual form of madness.

Coming out the other side, I yearned for something of deeper meaning. Something that touched my soul and had me Feeling, yearning for a a life lived on purpose. A true essential way.

This fed my want for something of tangible source to be coded in my being as pure holiness emanating as my highest potential, as pure embodiment of Light being. I was looking for a kind of permanece form of healing that was as pristine and as closely transparent to the the essential pathway that was Light at it's core, that I felt with my Higher Self. A true form of healing that was transcendental and all forging of new pathways. One that could draw from the ancient wise traditions and be the beacon of light that could erase the long pause button I felt like I had pressed on life.

I once heard that the biggest trauma that we as humans have to resolve is the trauma of incompletion. Which made sense on a very keen level of being. Aren't we always looking for ways to fill, to thrive and isn't it true that some of our deepest wounds as a social species is the void of seperation of living during a time of massive disruption. But the thing about disruption is it can either shake us into dismay or shape us into being. Thinking that we are separate or other than has led to mankinds pitfall of supreme oversee, oppressive wants and now, societal segregation. So it only made sense that our deepest revival would be of permanece nature. We are a continuum of wants leading upward to one single goal. Universal love. Do we not all deserve a chance to live heaven on earth and to live our glory as the elements, the heavens and the New Earth collective. I was pondering the answer. And it came to me!

As a declaration of it's finest and true essential form!

Sovereignty is reclamation of the sacred self. The Holy glory of a thousand grails. She who is the saviour from which all other cease.

The patriarchal dystology dystopian philosophy of nature not providing enough or 'speak your truth' and be slain mentality, is all but what were trying to relieve within the social ecology of the movement into a more feminine way of being.

The distracted and addictive mindset being all but what brought us to disruptive beliefs and distrusting of the bigger picture of all of but what is the remains of dystopian culture. Through the ages glace we see this mimicked in history as the pendulum pointing downward towards a purely masculine way of being. To really survive in this dawning of A golden era, we must play equal parts into the justice of bringing balance through initial order. The sun does not rise without the Moon's efforts to bring dawn to a new day.

It is in the natural world that we find our treasury. Not so much in pain but in the forethought will we rise to pleasure.

But as we see living in particular outcast mindsets we are amidst the paranoia of needing to contain, neutralize and cover up the viral overload of noise that is all but the minds reaction to living a life unlived. The antidote to this, A life in pronoia.

Actually following our wants cause we believe in the good of something bigger. Loving ourselves unconditionally and knowing our essential worthiness is as true as creation.

So wouldn't the cure or antidote to living in complete distraction and incomplete venture be something of permanece contrary?

I heard once that healing is a distraction. And that only true healing is real and deservable in the vast sense of the word.

True healing is to bring the light forward. As the feminine rising creatures we are, we are sought to do the integration work and to heal the masculine patriarchy through krystic awareness. A return to the most sacred aspect of our truest nature. The sacred self of immortal values.